You Are 62% Ready for Marriage |
 You are almost ready for marriage, and you could be ready to be engaged. You're still figuring out the details of your ideal relationship! |
Well, it’s too late for this test now. Heh! I will just compensate the remaining 38% by just being contented. Right?
You Are Okay With Money |
 You're about average with money, which means you probably don't have a lot of it. Your instincts tell you to stay out of debt and spend wisely... But you don't always listen to your instincts! With a little more effort, you could have a nice little nest egg. You just have to control your spending. |
I still need to improve and stop burning holes in my wallet. ASAP!
Sand and Stone
A story tells that two friends were walking through the desert. During some point of the journey they had an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face. The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand:
"Today my best friend slapped me in the face."
They kept on walking until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one, who had been slapped, got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him. After the friend recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone:
"Today my best friend saved my life."
The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him, "After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now, you write on a stone, why?"
The other friend replied: "When someone hurts us, we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it."
“Learn To Write Your Hurts In The Sand, And To Carve Your Benefits In Stone”
I’m sorry we came too early in the middle of your way.
I may not remember if I really have the intention from the very beginning to tag along with you or purely just an “accident” that we were both forced to face. Maybe yes, I wanted this but not this soon. I may have considered this as a vision but surely, not in the top of my A-List priority.
I know you feel you are being deprived of things that supposedly will make you happier instead of restraining yourself from doing because you already have a responsibility or in a much heavier term – obligation – up your shoulders.
I have come to accept this circumstance. I have put my defenses down just to be contented with what the fate had course upon me. I have set my mind that this is not a mistake, but something I should be grateful no matter what. But things change.
In the short span of months I already feel like I’m a loser. I wanted to fight and to hold still but to no avail, change is nowhere. The shitty insulted feeling I have in me now makes me want to move on and face all of this by myself. You often ask what’s on my mind or what I am thinking in that moment, truthfully, I am thinking to stand on my own and live alone.
There are always thoughts coming that I don’t need you anymore but I know you will just laugh pointing at my actions of demanding too much from you. But hell, not! You are not making me feel that I am not in the position, even in consolation, of demanding more of your attention or demanding less of your rudeness, tantrums and hate.
I really don’t feel I’m overreacting or too emotional for that matter. I want you to understand that I have faced this situation too early I was not even prepared or ready about it. Please don’t just assume that this entire situation is okay with me or that I don’t have a problem with this. You never asked me, you just concluded that what I am about to get myself into is the place I really wanted to go.
But please don’t think that I don’t like what had happened to me. To tell you the truth, the moment I have seen and confirmed it, the very first reaction I made was to smile sincerely. I was grateful and felt the excitement over clouding through my feelings. The same excitement, which I hope you will also feel but you failed to show or that I missed to see in your action and hear in your words.
Although I don’t imply that you are not a good partner but I really don’t get where it lacks understanding or consideration.
I am just afraid, I hope you will recognize the fears and worries I keep inside me before I go to sleep and right after I woke up. See, it is not just about me that I worry. Can’t you understand the phase I am going through? This situation caught me off-guard unprepared. It had left me no choice or enough time to get myself composed and secured.
I am not open to any resolution or compromise because I send this point down with my self-esteem. I won’t admit that what I am about to do if things don’t go my way is just a case of too much paranoia that clouds against good judgment and fair decision.
